July 11^th

David,

Remember how I said that nothing happened when I saw the hypnotist? I think that judgment might have been a little premature.

Last night I had a dream. I was lying on Helen’s table. I was watching the scene from a distance, like an outside observer. I was under and she was having a conversation with Dr. Rush. It was a little scary. She said, “I think it’s happening again.”

Dr. Rush said, “Give her a little more time. I think she could be the one.”

“Things are getting out of control. We need to end this,” was her response.

He said, “Don’t we have enough blood on our hands?”

She slammed her hand down on the table next me and I didn’t even flinch. She looked a little out of control. She leaned close to him like she was going to kiss him but it was an entirely hostile act and sounding thoroughly disgusted, said, “They were innocents.”

“So was she,” he said nodding toward my body, which looked small and vulnerable in light of their conversation.

Do you think it is possible it might not have been just a dream? I’m supposed to go back there on the 18th. I don’t want to, but I’m afraid of what might happen if I don’t.

Me.